Swings with Plans.

I couldn't handle it anymore..
The frustrations of today were catching up to me...
pretty much following me as I drove
home from the studio...
So I pulled over at the park..
Got out of my car...
and walked straight to the swings..

I started to get higher...and then
carelessly kicked off my shoes as far as I could
(haha I used to do this with my friends as a kid!)




The wind in my face and the shade from the
trees and the holes of sunlight beaming down
on me..



Those frustrations?



didn't follow me to the swing..:o)

Jesus had a lot to say to me while I was on this swing...
And I wasn't distracted...
so I actually listened!!


He reminded me of some promises.
Big promises.
Promises....He will never forget, even if I do.
(PRAISE THE LORD!)

One in particular...
that I need to hear every once in a while

That He knows the plans that HE has for me!
not..
I know the plans He has for me.
or..
I know the plans I have for myself.

But I am suppose to know NOTHING! ;o)
Which is good...because I don't!
Isn't it amazing?
My Almighty God can know! And I'll leave it to him...today...this evening as I write this...

I'll leave it to Him.
If you ever see me striving on my own....push me off my feet, please.
I need to remember that while on this swing...
I wasn't standing on my own two feet...
(He likes to hold us sometimes!)
And today..he held me.
Held me close.

And when I jumped off that swing...
My feet landed on new ground...(more like sand?!)
but guess what?

Those frustrations?
hmm...

not so familiar anymore!
;o)

Psalm 138

Thank you for your love,
thank you for your faithfulness;
Most holy is your name,
most holy is your Word.
The moment I called out, you stepped in;
you made my life large with strength.

Though I walk in the midst of trouble,
You will revive me;
You will stretch forth Your hand against the wrath of my enemies,
and Your right hand will save me.
The Lord will perfect that which concerns me;
Your mercy and loving-kindness, O Lord, endure forever--
forsake not the works of Your own hands.

- Ps. 138: 2-3, 7-8



I believe the calling.

Costa Rica

It's been on my mind lately...



[I want to go, Lord.]


and today during lunch while at the studio I couldn't stop thinking about it.
Go.
where?


Then Shari came up to me during rehearsal and asked me if I wanted to go to
Costa Rica with her!
My smile couldn't get any bigger.
Her eyes leaped with joy.

This was my answer.

What joy to be found in knowing that I will be poured out again!
On the streets of Costa Rica...while dancing & worshiping my Jesus.

O God, thank you :o)


[see? all I had to do was listen]

Only what's on my mind.

Expecting change.
yet being afraid of it

Wanting simplicity.
yet still yearning for new things

Desiring peace.
yet refusing to let my heart rest until answers are found



"All of my fountains are in You, Jesus"
Psalm 87:7



And I want to learn polish. ;o)

Reckless Feeling!

Driving at 9:04 pm...

45 mph...

new hair cut blowin' in the wind with the windows down.....

83 degrees....





this is my reckless abandonment.



It is SO good to be aware
that I have NO grip on my future.
That whatever happends next -
is none of my doing

BUT HIS :o)

I got to talk to someone about -everything the other night,
and the more I thought about it...
the more content I was with my blindness.

Once again, I'm caused to listen.

well here it goes........

I'll let you know what I hear ;o)
(((((HE IS SO GOOD!))))))

And it's resolved.