I understood.
I understood what it meant to be overwhelmed today.
My trainee season has just come to an end, thank you Jesus!
And I have spent the past 3 years ministering with amazing
people to ALL kinds of people groups I didn't even have
relations with before I came here! (He expanded my heart!!!)
So in many ways- I was on this emotional rollercoaster...
walking into the elementary school we were dancing at
- thoughts like
"this is the last time I'll do this....I'll do that....I dance with
that person.....I'll see this"
And today, I was asked to give a testimony before we danced.
Speaking?
In...in front of ...
PEOPLE????
I can't!!!! I am too wrapped up in this being "my last time" to do
so many things! I AM AN EMOTIONAL WRECK!
and please realize, I am not good with words......
................that are VOCAL!
I can't for some reason get out what I want to say...
And then I beat myself up for not saying what I really
WANT to say...instead, I say something entirely
different.
.........
It was short.
It was bold. <-----not of my nature It was overwhelming
I still feel like I didn't say enough...and the enemy will
do that! Make me feel like I didn't say the right thing
or didn't really know what I was talking about.....
And you know what?
I was certain.
SO certain.
Certain enough to where water rose in my eyes as
an OVERFLOW of the Lord's love for these kids and
adults in front and people in the wings beside me!!!!!!!!!!!!
He is to be praised!
He is to be lifted high!
Oh God................YOU ARE GOOD!!!!!
I have sensed this all along, but I am SAYING IT NOW!
THAT YOU ARE GOOD!!!!!!!!!
What an awesome feeling.
To be overwhelmed.
Not stress-related at all.
But God's heart-related!
I felt it, you guys.
I can't even write it.
AND THEN I HAD TO DANCE AFTERWARDS!
Laughter only spilled from my heart the entire
ballet though. hahaha, only because of too many
bloopers and mess-ups to count.......and because
I was enjoying the presence of the Lord AND
dancing with people I loved that could not be
expressed in words!!!!
His Goodness to me is Overwhelming
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